FLASH FICTION – 10.22am

The man landed on his back in front of the double glass doors. His mouth gaped. He looked through to me in the foyer. His legs moved, the knees bent, and he sat up.  

A red ID badge fastened to the breast pocket of his dark suit told me he came from the restricted floor: Floor Eight. Now he sat outside on the rubber entry mats, a puddle of broken glass about him. 

The man lifted his arm and tapped at the watch on his left  wrist. My eyes flicked to the clock above the reception desk – 10.22am – and back again. 

I blinked, frozen in place as his eyes bored through the distance between us for long moments. I should move. I should help. I should do something. But I couldn’t. 

I stared.

He stared back, a look of resignation on his unmarked face. He gave me the briefest of nods and then his expression shimmered in and out of focus. The effect rippled down his body, juddering him like a seizure. His eyes turned frantic. His fingers clutched the air. He looked up.

As I watched, his body faded.

There was a tremendous crash from above. A man hit the ground hard in front of the glass doors. His head burst on impact. The face deflated; brain matter and blood the colour of the ID tag dangling from the breast pocket of his dark suit spread over a puddle of broken glass.

On the periphery of my vision, I caught a glimpse of the clock above the reception desk. I focused on it to block out the sight before me.

 I blinked. 

The clock flipped over to 10.22am.


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FLASH FICTION – The Oak of Witches’ Folly

This bit of flash fiction was inspired by a knot in the floorboards in my cousin’s house. I used it as a prop for a book photo but the idea of it stuck in my head.

Do you see what I see?

The Oak of Witches’ Folly – Katia M. Davis

The oak had stood sentinel at the edge of the clearing known as Witches’ Folly for over four hundred years. Then men came, bringing tools with teeth that bit and chains that wrapped and hauled.

The men took the oak to a place where machines shrieked and screamed. They split it, again and again, exposing its secrets and cleaving them open to the light. Knotted faces, ancient and dark, peered from their wooden prison with fresh-cut eyes.

Twisted lips whispered:

I see the sky.

The air is chill.

Release us. 


A flatbed truck jerked to a halt outside number fifty-two Harrowden Place. Up the drive, a squat man with a bushy moustache clambered down the two storey scaffolding.

‘Over here,’ the man waved to the truck driver with one hand while adjusting the utility belt slung low under his belly with the other. ‘I was expecting you this morning.’

The driver slammed the truck door. ‘Got a flat,’ he shouted across the lawn. ‘Where do you want them?’

‘They’re for the entry and hall, so dump them against the wall as you go through the front.’

The driver nodded his understanding and dropped the tailgate. He draped a piece of sack cloth over his right shoulder and pulled on a pair of rigger’s gloves he kept safe in his back pocket. 

Solid oak floorboards, bundled together in manageable stacks, filled the tray of the flatbed. The driver bent his knees and pulled the first load onto his shoulder. He straightened, bounced a little to settle the load, and slung his arm over the wood like it was a girl on his sofa. 

As he turned towards the house a whisper haunted his ear: 

I see the sky.

The air is chill.

Release us.


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Self-publishing: Why I Changed My Cover Design

a question mark written in white chalk on a blackboard

Self-publishing is hard. Sure, uploading stuff and hitting that publish button is easy, just about anyone can do it. Making sure the thing you are asking people to spend their hard earned money on is as good as it can be is another kettle of fish.

In comparison to many of the current covers, mine looked old fashioned and a worn around the edges. That isn’t a good thing. At first I thought it might have been because everyone was going solo and using Canva (I love Canva, I use it for a lot of my advertising graphics). But then a whole series of classic ghost, horror and creepy stories came out, all with bold colours and vector graphics. Even delightfully twisted authors like Neil Gaiman and Stephen King began sporting vector graphics on their covers. What was going on?

I decided I liked the new trend. To be honest, I much prefer to work with vector images because they are easily scalable, are clear, and can pack a punch. With self-publishing platforms asking for higher and higher resolutions, and Print on Demand turning into Disaster on Demand if your cover is not high quality, vector graphics are the obvious all round solution.

That is why I changed my cover design. It is still based on the inspiration for my original idea, but its simplicity draws the eye and is clearer.

My first collection of dark fiction short stories The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories, is available now for pre-order from Amazon. Click on the image below to check it out.

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Writing and a Self-Publishing Journey

I’ve been writing for nearly thirty years. Many things have sown the seeds of inspiration and I’ve penned many a tale. But it was only several years ago I decided to do something with that writing and learned all I could about the craft. I did a creative writing course back in 2007, and I wrote, and I read, and I wrote, and I read some more to hone my skills.

I learned my writing style was best suited to shorter works of fiction. I also learned my muse is dark, and no matter how nicely I began a story, something untoward always happened. I embraced the darkness.

Finally comfortable with my level of knowledge, I sent a story off to a magazine. I got a personalised rejection saying, “Try us again”. Some people might have been disappointed, but I knew personalised rejections were rare, and to get one for the very first story I sent out, that was a sign. I realised I had reached “that point”. What was stopping me taking matters into my own hands and self-publishing? Nothing.

A new learning curve began. I learned about blogging (I need to blog more), what should go on an author page, cover design, layouts for PoD, how to create graphics for advertising, ISBNs, copyright, email lists, and how to make myself into a self-publishing business. I was fortunate to have a background in technical drawing from my archaeology days, and I have a qualification in Business Administration, so these things did not seem as daunting as they could have been.

I set up shop as a sole trader under the umbrella of Drop Hammer Publishing. I developed a five year business plan, and fostered ideas to expand still further in order to help new writers, especially those in minority groups such as my own (disability and LGBT). I’m two years in, and the plan is coming together. Check out my first collection of dark fiction below.

The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories is due for release through Amazon on the 13th May 2019.

The Stories:

The Passages of Melton Hall: Two Victorian women attempt to dispose of a corpse only to discover a horrifying secret.

Orcus – A Right to Die: Harold Reams wants to die, so he hires the friendly services of the Orcus Right to Die Company.

The Trunk: The trunk was gone, drowned in the lake forever. Now a drought has created the perfect opportunity for darkness to re-emerge.

Broomstick Wood: Beck is a killer, but his latest victim has a more pressing problem than death.

The Night Voice: Maria has learnt the art of meditation. She revels in the visual and auditory hallucinations such a state creates, writing down everything she sees and hears. Her most recent experience is different, overwhelming, and very real.

Tea for One: Something has been moving the fireside companion set in Eunice Hall’s living room from one side to the other. When a relaxing afternoon turns into a fight for her life, she finally understands why.

Old Mr Corrigan: A group of wayward boys gets more than they bargained for when one of them recites a rhyme beneath the old hanging tree.

The Donor: When Selma finds victim trophies hidden beneath the bedroom floor, she knows her husband has done dreadful things.

A Stranger in My Grave: A girl who looks like a boy floats outside little Alice’s bedroom window. The girl has a message for Alice’s Governess, and a warning she cannot ignore.

Nameless: In 1632, a woman is accused of dancing with the Devil. Condemned and shackled; will a trial expose her true nature?

Foolish: Septimus Hayes, prized Executioner for the town of Short Spire, is dedicated and meticulous. When he is called on to execute a young man for matricide, his dedication is stretched to the limit.

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Writing: Inspiration for The Passages of Melton Hall

Thirteen years ago, I visited a small village in Derbyshire in the UK by the name of Foolow. It’s situated a mile down the road from Eyam, the village that shut itself off from the outside world in 1665 to stop the spread of plague. There is not a lot in Foolow aside from an 18th Century pub prized for its menu, and a duck pond. Beside the pond is a stone structure with a set of worn steps leading down to a lapping pool of water and a barred gate. The whole thing fascinated me. It looked like the perfect place to dump a body.

Using the structure as inspiration, I developed the plot for the title story of The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories. I did dump a body down there, hiding it temporarily until the characters could dispose of it. But there was something more sinister lurking in the darkness behind the barred gate.

The photo I took back in 2006 was fuzzy and had been taken with a two megapixel phone camera. It was good enough for me to look at and I used it to create a vector graphic for my book cover, but I couldn’t share it with an audience.

I was lucky enough to revisit Foolow on the 7th of May this year. I made sure I took photos with a much better camera from various angles. Someone had also cleaned the gate since I had last visited, so it was no longer covered in a veil of slimy things. This did take away from the spookiness of the place a little, but in its cleaned state, the gate also looked more prison-like.

Now, when people ask where my inspiration as a writer comes from, I can show them some decent pictures, like these below.

The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories is a collection of eleven dark and disturbing stories and is available for purchase on Amazon from the 13th of May 2019. I dare you to have a read to find out what twisted things my mind can conjure based on an innocent looking stone structure beside a duck pond.

The duck pond in Foolow looking towards the stone structure. Image © 2019 Katia M. Davis.
The entrance to the stone structure. Image © 2019 Katia M. Davis.
Looking down the steps towards the barred gateway. Image © 2019 Katia M. Davis.
Close-up of the barred gate. Is there anything lurking behind those bars?
Image © 2019 Katia M. Davis.

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Merchandising – A few designs

As the publication date looms for my short story collection of psychological horrors, The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories, I’ve been thinking about merch. I’ve said before that merchandising is a good way of engaging with readers by offering them something other than your writing. Not everyone wants ‘stuff’, but for those who do, sites like Teespring are a good option for Indie authors.

But what am I going to offer my readers? The secret, I think, is to have a few designs that work equally well on a variety of items, such as t-shirts, mugs, stickers, hoodies etc. I need a tagline to encompass my collection. Then I need to develop designs that reflect more than just the book as a whole. Since there are twelve stories in the collection, no doubt people will have their favourites. This means I will probably develop twelve designs (although perhaps not all available at the same time).

Having merchandise doesn’t simply mean an additional stream of income. It means I have access to items I can purchase myself and give away as promotional gifts or prizes. Some people might think this defeats the purpose of creating a revenue stream. I don’t. Which author are readers going to remember, the one sitting on Amazon doing nothing except sending a newsletter telling readers to buy their next book or the author who sent them a cool t-shirt because they won a reader raffle?

With this in mind, I’ve developed a preliminary design for my tagline and a couple of the stories. The story designs are not completely new, I created a version of them last year for website images. I simply tweaked them for merchandising purposes. I’ve got a while to go before everything will be up and running, but have a look below to see what I’ve come up with so far. As always, I’ve either drawn the images myself or they are CC0 from Pixabay.

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Cover Reveal – Horror story collection

The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories

Another step in the publication process has been ticked off my to-do list. After many iterations, the time has come. The full cover design for The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories is done.

Thanks must go to my family and friends (both in person and through my Facebook page) who gave me feedback. Thanks also to the Fiction Writing group and Writers Helping Writers group on Facebook for the invaluable critiques. The cover was improved greatly because of everyone’s feedback. Who knew fonts could be so polarising?

So without further ado…

passages front and back 5.9.18

I believe it is important for self-published authors to share their trials and tribulations with other writers, particularly those who may be self-publishing for the first time (like me). This does two things:

  1. It shows new authors they are not alone. Nothing is spat out onto the page fully formed and perfect whether it be a cover design or the 1st draft of a novel. Every finished product has gone through dozens of changes, we just don’t normally see them.
  2. By showing others my mistakes or poor choices, I may help new authors avoid them during their own process.

If you are interested in seeing the journey the cover took on its way to finalisation, have a glance below at the failed designs and an explanation.

passages cover evolution

The top three designs were developed straight off the top of my head when I first started to write the collection back in February 2017. I had not done any research into the style required for the horror genre. Had I done the research, I would have saved myself a lot of time.

After I had created the initial designs I did a search on popular horror collections for comparison and realised I was well off the mark. I also read a few articles on cover design so my layout improved. I decided to put the yellow sticker on the front to give people a heads-up about what was inside. However, the feedback I received from my Facebook groups suggested this made it look a bit tacky and designed for children rather than the psychological horror I had written. Besides, my blurb would let people know what was inside so it was redundant. I was also told the font options I’d chosen were either unclear or did not fit the time period for the title story (Victorian era). The shading in the background was also too busy.

I took all this advice on board and realised the points were completely valid, so I changed things and came up with the final iteration you saw initially. It was an excellent learning curve and I feel a lot more confident and knowledgeable regarding cover design. In the final cover, all images are CC0 from Pixabay.

The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories will be available to purchase by the end of 2018.

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Perfect for Crime or Horror Writers

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This isn’t an endorsement, but…

I’m moving house and downsizing at the end of the month so I’ve decided to make a clean sweep of a lot of things. I’ve lived in the same place for eleven years and plenty of things have deteriorated over the years (including me!). My knife block is a good example. The wooden base has discoloured from absorbing spills, a couple of the knives are worn to death, and I’ve lost one…no idea how.

So I jumped on Amazon looking for a new knife block. I like red and maroon because it reminds me of blood. Seriously. I think blood is a wonderful colour. Perhaps this is why I write horror. My search term was, therefore ‘knife block red’.  Bless Amazon and all its metadata, spider trawling glory, because the first thing it spat out at me was this:

knife block in the shape of a man with knifes stuck in his body

My search is over.

Now I have the opportunity to not only have a new knife block but to freak out anyone who happens to wander into my kitchen. I am not sure which one I am more pleased about.

Would you have this in your kitchen?


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Short Horror Story: Orcus – A Right to Die

This is a draft version of a story that will appear in my upcoming collection of short horrors, The Passages of Melton Hall and other stories, next month. I thought I’d roll it out here as a bit of a teaser and to field thoughts and suggestions. It makes me think of the Twilight Zone.  I apologise for lack of indents, apparently my best intentions have been overridden by the style sheet. Hope you enjoy.

Kat


Orcus – A Right to Die

The Orcus Right to Die Company offered an excellent service. Technicians visited clients at home, or at a place of their choosing, and administered their product for a reasonable upfront fee. Payment plans were not available. Harold had worn their glossy brochure dull with reading. The stock models with memento mori eyes had become smeared with moisture from his palms.
“Mr Reams, are you certain you wish to begin the procedure?” The white-clad technician moved close, and the smell of latex curled in Harold’s nose.
A stained throw crept further down the back of Harold’s favourite chair as he nodded consent, “Yes.”

The only thing missing was Bourbon, his cat. He’d found a new home for the insufferable creature just last week after sharing eleven years with her. As much as it had pained him to say goodbye, it had been the right thing to do.
“I’ll numb the skin over the vein in your arm, Mr Reams. I’ll use a spray and it will be a little cold, but you won’t feel the first needle going in.”
“Alright.” Harold smiled, he liked how they called him by name, reminding him, even at this time, he was still a valued customer.
“I’ve prepared the initial syringe, Mr Reams. This is the drug that will put you under, just like if you were having an operation. You will start to feel sleepy and then drift off. If at any time, any time at all, even in the last moment before you fall asleep, you change your mind, Mr Reams, just say ‘no’, or ‘stop’, and we won’t administer the final syringe. No-one will think badly of you for it. You don’t have anything to prove. Do you understand?”
He nodded.
“You have to say you understand, Mr Reams.”
“Yes, I understand.”
Harold thought he saw the corner of the technician’s eye twitch a little behind his glasses.
“I’m administering the first syringe now. Are you sure you wish to go ahead, Mr Reams?”
“Yes.”
Harold did not feel the small scratch as the hypodermic pierced his skin. They were right about the numbing agent. He wondered why it wasn’t used in all procedures involving needles. His mind fogged over a little, and his eyes fluttered closed as he searched for something to think about in his final lucid moments. He thought of Bourbon, of how she would sit on his chest in bed at night, her head nestled under his chin and the vibration of her purr thrumming against his throat. Harold tried to smile at the memory, but his face wouldn’t move.

***
A special type of silence exists only in the mind. It is a hum or buzz that resonates until the listener believes it an actual noise. Harold Reams recognised the noise and thought it strange because he was dead. Then there was the smell, like the inside of a fresh garbage bag, all new, and plastic, and out of place. The air tasted of body lotion.
Harold frowned. His face could move again. That wasn’t supposed to happen to dead people either. Had he told them to stop? Had he ultimately been unable to go through with it? The sting of tears made the back of his throat hurt. He must have told them to stop, but why wasn’t he in his armchair? Why did he feel like he was laid out on a slab covered in darkness? A horrible thought filtered through his confusion. What if something had gone wrong and he wasn’t dead, but they thought he was? What if they were about to ship him off in a body bag to be cremated? His bowels flopped like a slippery fish, and he yelled.
“I’m alive!”
Harsh fluorescent light made him screw his eyes shut when he hadn’t realised they were open.
“Mr Reams,” a voice said, “as far as the world is concerned, you are very much dead.”
“What?”
“At six this evening, we killed you.”
“I don’t understand.”
The voice turned into a bespectacled figure of a man dressed in a well-tailored, dark grey suit. A large gold signet ring protruded from his left little finger.
“At this very moment, Mr Reams, an incredibly life-like silicone model of your corpse is on its way ready for an open casket viewing tomorrow morning. Obituaries are flying through fibre optic cables. Your solicitor is preparing to receive your death certificate before executing your will. Do you think you could sit up, Mr Reams?”
Hard heeled brogues clicked on the tiled floor as the man came closer.
“I…” Harold tensed his stomach muscles and pushed himself upright with an arm.
“Very good. You might be a little weak for a few of your hours yet.”
Harold glanced down at his body, clad in a crisp white gown. His legs, protruding beneath the hem, had been shaved smooth.
“Why am I here?”
“Because you were tired of your life and wanted to die.”
“But I’m alive.”
“You might be breathing, but you have ceased to exist. The life you had and all your worldly concerns are no more.”
“Just like that?”
“You did pay us to get rid of it.”
“To get rid of me.”
“A minor distinction,” the man said, his ring flashing as he flicked his wrist. “You don’t have to worry about that now. Rest, eat, regain your strength.” He moved across to a white wall and ran a hand over a near invisible sensor. A small motor whirred behind the panel and the wall opened up, revealing a room with a dining table and chair. The table was covered with all manner of dishes. “You must be hungry.”
“I’m dead, but not dead?” Harold swung his legs over the side of the narrow bed, ignoring a gastric rumble in response to the smorgasbord. He slid forward until the chill of tiles touched his bare feet.
“That’s right, Mr Reams, dead but not dead. Be careful when you stand.”
Harold nodded but staggered when he transferred his weight. He grasped at the bed a moment to steady himself, his breath coming in short, sharp inhalations. “What have you done to me?”
“You were warned you might be weak. The residual effects of the drug will wear off soon. Here, take my arm.”
The man moved beside him and Harold clutched at the well-tailored sleeve, hard muscle bunched beneath the fabric. Together, they walked the few steps into the dining room and Harold dropped into a straight back chair. The metal legs shrieked against the tiles.
“I’ll leave you to eat, please, don’t be shy, it will help.” The man smiled, revealing a row of neat little teeth that seemed too small for his mouth, like milk teeth.
Harold watched the man’s back as he disappeared into the first room. “Thank you,” he said, but his voice echoed off the pristine walls.

***
The two grey suits observed the man who had been Harold Reams devour half a fried chicken from behind the protection of a two-way glass.
“He’s perfectly healthy,” the first one said.
“Of course. The Doctor does excellent work. It is not difficult to convince these people they are better off dead. They are so emotionally fragile, I felt it in him when he held my arm. No substance whatsoever.” He touched at his sleeve and caught the faint scent of sweat that was distinctly Harold. His lip curled.
“Have you made the plans for him yet?”
“No,” the man removed his thick, black-rimmed glasses. Shadowed pits in place of eyes continued to study Harold through the glass. The spectacle lenses blinked holographically in his hand. “I thought we might fatten him up a little bit first.”
“Good idea. We don’t want to send off inferior stock.”
“There is our reputation, finest purveyors of pure protein and all that.”
The first man grinned, his glasses flickered to simulate the scrunching at the corners of his eyes. His little teeth, fluorescent in the dim light, glinted mustard-yellow with digestive enzyme.
“You’re making me hungry,” his thin lips puckered as he sucked at the secretions. A slight shudder ran through his narrow frame, “How old is this one?”
“Forty-five.”
“Perfectly cured, sweet meat, then.”
“He’ll fetch a good price.”
“A few more like him and we can go home.”
The man replaced his glasses and settled them just so on the bridge of his nose. He showed his teeth, “It won’t be long. The Doctor is already working.”

 


 

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Why I Write Horror

Why am I drawn to the odd, strange, twisted and terrifying? Why did I laugh when my friend freaked out about the baby crawling across the ceiling during the withdrawal scene in Trainspotting? Not that Trainspotting is a horror movie, although it could be. Why do the weird jerky movements of the girl in The Ring fascinate me and make others shiver? Why do I spend more time wondering about how many ways a slasher can hack someone up rather than the victim get away?

melt manMaybe it’s because my father let me watch Friday 13th when I was ten, or that I invited kids to my eleventh birthday to watch The Incredible Melting Man and some of them went home crying. Perhaps I became warped and twisted? I don’t think so, because even at ten years old, Friday 13th did not scare me. Sure I was on the edge of my seat wondering what would happen, but I wasn’t scared, I was excited.

Was I born with some malformed pleasure centre? No. I don’t like hurting things. I have on occasion had to put an injured animal out of its misery, or kill a rodent, but it wasn’t fun. I hate it when my cat gets a fur ball and makes all those horrid hoiking noises. I imagine she might choke to death and that does scare me.

When I was a member of a gun club, I was fine firing a 9mm Beretta at a circular target but got creeped out when my instructor changed it to a human shape and asked me to double tap it. I did, but I felt dirty, or evil like I had graduated to having permission to kill someone even if they were made of cardboard.

My father was a prison officer for thirty years, some of which were in maximum security prisons in Australia. He knew Chopper Read, in fact, I think he got an autographed copy of Chopper when the book first came out. He only once talked about his job, and that was to give me a life lesson on why young girls should be careful. It was soon after the murder of Anita Cobby and he told me some of the terrible things that had been done to her by her attackers that were not released to the press because they were too gruesome.

Have I been desensitised? No. If that was the case things that happen to real people would not fill me with disgust. It is only in fiction that my mind accepts them. My characters can lock a person in a concrete box, tied up with wire and leave them to drown, water slowly rising from a hosepipe fed in through a hole. Or kill someone and return to their body the next day to enjoy the corpse.

Where does that come from? Did something happen before I was ten years old that made me want to create horror? I found my grandfather, dead in the bottom of our garden when I was five and a half. I thought he was sleeping. I told my grandmother and she told me to poke him with a stick. I did, and nothing happened. I understood he was gone, but I don’t remember being frightened or sad, just curious. He was going on an adventure without me.

mee coonaBefore that I lived on a farm, things died all the time, but I don’t really remember. When my Grandfather found a centipede in the shed, I shouted, “Kill its head! Kill its head!”, because that’s what he’d taught me to do if I saw one, lest it grab me in its pincers and inject a venom my toddler body would not like. He cut its head off with a spade. The body wriggled for a while. It was the way of things.

My father once gave mouth to mouth to a newborn calf. It had been born with the membrane tight across its nose and mouth and wouldn’t breathe after it was cleared away. My father got it breathing again and my grandfather and I nursed it. I named him Calfie. I think he ended up at market. It was the way of things.

We had another farm when I was a teenager. My father and I found an abandoned lamb. We took it up to the house to try and nurse it, but it was too weak and died. We threw it over the fence for the fox. It was the way of things.

album 2_0006When I was sixteen, my mother died in my arms from a heart attack associated with long-term diabetes. I did CPR but knew it was hopeless. She would not have wanted to return, blind, attached to dialysis equipment, unable to walk, in constant neuropathic agony, and now with brain damage from lack of oxygen. I was a smart kid. A couple of hours previous she’d told me she’d seen her dead brother at the foot of her bed. I stopped CPR while I waited for the ambulance. We lived ten miles out of town. It was the way of things.

Several people have told me I have an old soul. Maybe I am drawn to horror and unafraid because the thing that makes me me has seen it all before and then some. Perhaps my blind mother hallucinating her dead brother hours before her own death resonated with a part of me that knew there was something more at play in the world, and all the horrible things are simply a different expression of life.

I don’t truly know why I write horror. What I have written here seems hollow and unfulfilled. They were experiences that shaped me, but they did not make me. Something else did that; endless rivers of time converging to a point where I came to be. I am not strange because I choose to delve beneath the visceral surface and see it for what it is. We are all drawn to the ‘other’, to freak shows, oddities, things that secretly make us glad we are ‘us’ and not ‘them’. Perhaps those who write horror are simply more open about it. What do you think?